It’s
a bright and sunny morning as I sit with you; I haven’t had a still moment like
this in a while, where it’s just my toddler and I doing our thing together. While
I stay busy, Hallie does her usual, which at the moment is playing with a big
spread of play-doh. Since we’ve been staying with my parents, our routine has
been shaken to the core and we’ve been struggling with the transition period. With
Jon out of work for the past three weeks and all the other change, it was a
tough time to say the very least. With our final walk through of our new home
scheduled for this Sunday and the closing Monday, it seems we have finally made
it to the end. I can’t say it was an extremely enjoyable time; I’ve never been
one that thrived in an environment of change and when you’re in the midst of a
change this big, throw in a major event like a potential job loss and it’s
enough to really mess with you! Before my life takes off, I thought it would be
beneficial to sit with the blog one last time. If I know myself well enough, I
can’t really unwind and write if my entire house isn’t settled, so in light of
not rushing myself, It will be a bit till I’ll write again.
When
I go through any span of time that’s been difficult or life changing, I always
feel it necessary to find the lesson I can pick from it. That way, I can lay my
head down at night and know it wasn’t all for nothing. With the past 5 weeks
being a tough time, doused in stress and prayer, I can now say, I can truly
appreciate a couple things that I took for granted not so long ago.
1.
My husband and his job. This man that I share my life with, he’s there
every day. He helps raise our daughter, he accompanies us to the store and he
provides us with so much. But after a while, it’s easy to forget all that he
truly does and sacrifice. Sure, my life is full of sacrifices too, but so is
his. He works tirelessly at a job day in and day out and never complains. He
searches for the joy within his day and he supports us in ways that make our
life so comfortable. He is our provider and keeper. Take his job away and the
stability it holds, we face major hardship and our foundation shakes. I now see
his daily hard work in a new light and I’ll work so hard at keeping this
perspective fresh.
2.
My life at home with my kids. How many thoughts have I allowed to enter my brain
of how I wish I had a full-time job or how I wish I could just have an
afternoon to myself where I didn’t have to arrange a sitter. The thoughts are
there people and they can be toxic for your attitude. I saw the beauty in a
simple routine at home with my daughter when I was yanked out of it so swiftly.
She thrives at home, I see that now. She needs stability and so do I.
3.
A household to maintain. How many times have I muttered about the constant
crumbs on my kitchen floor? Or sighed in frustration about the endless string
of toys and clothes that need putting away? Or even the amount of time I spend
tirelessly in the kitchen, meal planning, cooking, and cleaning? Take that all away
in one night and you may think it would be heaven. After a week of this, you’ll
miss your space. You’ll miss your routine of maintaining this house that you
work tirelessly to keep. It’s an interesting thought and some may not agree,
but my experience was just this. The home that is so much work to keep day in
and day out, is worth it. It’s my life right now, and without it, half of my
job becomes uprooted and a void develops.
These three simple
reminders have given me such clarity as I move forward in this new chapter of
life; a new house, new memories and a fresh new perspective to take on my first
days under the roof of our new home. I can’t wait to dig in and start the
frenzy that is sure to come with moving in, but before I do, I’m taking a deep
breath and breathing in the peace and quiet. Even though this past month or so
that we stayed here at my parents was full of stress, frustration and feelings
difficult for me to understand, I can now say that this whole stay was worth
it. It wasn’t just a safe place to rest our heads and count down until we have
our new home. It was a period of time that grew me in more ways than one. It chiseled
away pieces of me that I needed to shed and humbled me in areas of my life that
desperately needed it. Now, it’s time to move forward.
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