It’s a beautiful late October afternoon over here in B-ville.
It’s been an uneventful Monday but also a productive one. Hallie and I have
just come in from a half hour outside, playing in the leaves and kicking her
mini soccer ball around. Must have been the fresh air because I felt compelled
to come over and blog about our recent events in this lovely life I’m lucky
enough to live every day.
I think it’s easy to get swept up in the idea that we don’t
have enough. We don’t make enough money, we don’t have enough time to spend
doing the things we like to do, and the list could go on. Something I find
myself lucky to have discovered young is that if we base our wants and desires
on a worldly standard we will never find satisfaction. After all, we’re flooded
with examples all day long! As a married woman in a young marriage it’s easy to
get caught up in the idea that we don’t have enough to make it in this materialistic
world. We could dwell on the idea that we don’t have nearly enough money to
purchase a house or another car or whatever seems to be a ‘need’ at the moment.
Recently, Jon
and I sat down at our little kitchen table and went over our bills together. My
practical mind began whirring and I thought about everything that wasn’t lining
up how I would like it. After we had finished putting the money where it
counted we both sat there in silence. Jon looked up at me and smiled, “we’re
doing alright,” he said. I was kind of shocked at the statement and the calm
nature to his voice. I was in the middle of thinking viciously about how I
could save more money, not how we were doing ‘alright’! Then, I stopped. I
stopped thinking and I just looked at him and how calm he was sitting over there
with his pen and paper.
I’ve thought
about that moment a lot since it happened and though it wasn’t a romantic
dinner over lobster and wine, it was as special as any date could’ve turned out
to be. My husband, my best friend and my life companion was standing so firm
and confident in a time I really needed him to. A silent reminder that
everything doesn’t need to be perfect or in order, that doing alright was
enough!
So as we
venture through the upcoming seasons of this young life we’ve just begun, the
practical, perfectionist side of me can take a break and let things roll out
the way they should. I was reminded in recent morning devotion that God originally
created us to need rest. In fact, crave rest. So as I slowly master this
mom/wife/adult thing, I should remember that rushing around trying to perfect
everything is a waste. God has already perfected it.
Thought I would add a little memory from this afternoon. :)
