Can I just say, naming a person is not an easy task!? Sure, you find out your pregnant, life moves on and the reality sets in that this bump below you is not just a cute thing to take pictures of and post on Instagram, that bump houses a sweet baby that has a future, just like yours and mine. And with a future comes a daunting fact that we have the responsibility of naming this little growing person. What will people call her? What will her teachers and her grandparents say when they want her to look up at them? When I started to think about all of the things that went in to a name, I started to panic a little. I tend to over think things and because I want everything to be perfect for this little one, we put a lot of time and thought in to this name. So brace yourself my friends, because these are the reasons our daughter will be, Hallie Grace. :)
Let me start with the moment her name popped in my head. I was on my way home from work, it was a long night at work with not a lot of exciting moments, just another day, another dollar sort of thing. I was exhausted and couldn't wait to go to bed. I was rounding the curb on route 12 and I looked up at the sky. It was a really cold, clear night and I remember thinking how pretty it was and I noticed the thousands of stars twinkling above me as I sped home. They looked so sure of themselves like they were meant to be exactly where they were. I noticed what looked like an 'H' in the sky, it wasn't exact and it wasn't gleaming like a sign from heaven or anything but it definitely looked like an H and for whatever reason, the name Hallie popped in my head. Instantly I wanted to ask Jon what he thought of the name. We had been toying with names for months and we couldn't agree on anything. Nothing really grabbed our attention and put a smile on our face, so we just kept searching. Internet sites, movie credits...ect. I was hoping that something like this would happen, that a name would magically appear in my head and by some strange turn of fait, this name was exactly the name that put a smile on Jon's face when I bounded through the door and screamed the name Hallie at him while he was sitting half-asleep on the couch watching t.v.
Grace was a decision we made prior to my star gazing. As many of you know that follow my blog, this little baby wasn't planned for us. It happened, we coped, and we've moved on. But only by the grace of our God. The word grace took on a new meaning for me when I found out this baby was happening. I was so hard on myself in the beginning and really put myself in such a negative place. I wince when I think back to the feelings I let consume me. Grace was the only thing that pulled me out of this hole and really helped me move on with my life. The concept of Grace to me is just the most beautiful promise that this life has to offer. We all make mistakes and we all have daily struggles, that's inevitable. But by God's grace we don't have to harp on those mistakes and struggles. We can look forward to the bright future he's given us and grow within ourselves to learn from life and become the beautiful souls God created us to be. But wait, there is even more to this four letter word. It's not just a promise, its forgiveness. It's taught me to forgive. I want to teach Hallie that her middle name is not just something that sounded good with her first. It is a reminder that we are all human, it's a guarantee that this life isn't easy but if you have a forgiving heart you will live a much lighter, brighter, world. Never get hung up on anything, push forward and live your life to God's potential for you.
So with that, I present what's in her name and what it means to us. I only have 10 more weeks to go until she arrives and the sooner we get to meeting her the more we prepare ourselves to love her like God loves us. Unconditionally. <3
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