It’s been a couple weeks since I’ve been able to take
some time to scribble out a blog, so this morning I come to you with a full
mind, full heart, and of course…a full cup of coffee!!
Life as I know it has changed since my little ball of
energy began climbing. On chairs, toilet seats, on top of the couch, anything
with an elevated surface sure to make my blood pressure rise. It’s been a whole
new ball game since this milestone hit and it doesn’t leave me much time in the
day to stray from watching over my risky 17 month old. This means simple tasks
as doing the dishes and loading up the washing machine can prove to be a longer
ordeal than I ever imagined! My patience has been tested to a whole new level
and at times I can’t do anything but close my eyes and focus on breathing.
I share this new found difficulty with you not to vent or
complain but to share the lesson these trials brought forth. In the many
moments in the past couple of weeks where I’ve regrettably raised my voice at
this curious little toddler in training, I felt God get ahold of me in a
startling way. He shifted my perspective and I truly believe he allowed me to
see my perfectly crafted, Hallie Grace, fearfully and wonderfully made by the
man himself. Not for a mischievous little annoyance but for a curious,
innocent, and bright little joy that she is. I felt ashamed and I felt like a failure.
How dare I raise my voice when she needs a loving touch in the right direction?
One of my favorite things about being a Mom and venturing
down this path of unknown mother-hood is the constant growth that comes along
with it. If we just allow ourselves to take the challenges as they come
graciously and look to God for a moment of peace when needed, we got this!
It's a frustrating business being a mom and it brings new challenges daily. I pray for all you woman out there struggling through this 24/7 job. If we choose to look to God in our weak moments, we're sure to conquer anything.
xoxo
Mallory
