With the relaxing hum
of the air conditioner and the smooth glide of my new (used) glider, I feel
ready to craft a new and final blog. I say final blog because I imagine this
baby that’s been growing in my body for now close to 9 full-months has grown strong
enough to make his way out in the ‘real’ world, where he can start on his own
little journey called life, and I won’t have time to blog before or after he
arrives for a while. This blog has served so many purposes for me in the past,
as most of you have followed right along with me and maybe by now know that I
always put a little (okay maybe a lot) of pressure on each entry. This entry is
a big one though, because it’s the last page in a chapter I’ve been sharing for
3 years. I’ve been on this journey called, ‘Motherhood’ for a while now and I’m
about to shake things up by adding another piece to my journey. Another child!
What a privilege. What an exciting thing to be able to say, that I am blessed
enough to be able to care for another little baby from the time he enters this
world, until the time I leave it. I don’t take it lightly and now that I’ve
seen the marvel, the difficulty and the gift that being a Mother truly is, I
take it a little more seriously than I did with my first. Live and learn, right?
So,
I am now 10 days or less from his arrival date, and as much as I’ve physically
and emotionally struggled through this pregnancy, I’m taking a moment to
breathe. Breathe through my swollen feet and intrudingly large belly, and just
breathe in this life I lead. There are a lot of special things that take place
when a child enters the world. People join together, people bond; the world
slows down a bit and then speeds up somewhere in between. When I brought my
Hallie home from the hospital, the peaceful days following, that I spent
holding her and getting to know her were telling for me. Our families came
together in a way that I still can’t fully explain and it never really stopped.
I smile at the idea of what another baby will bring to our family.
So
as things unwind and I prepare for the birth of our second child, I’m
remembering to breathe. Breathe in the moments before our lives shift and
change and I’m trying to remember to savor the days for what they are, in all
their imperfections and discomfort. For everyone that has been there for me in
the last 9 months and will continue to be in the upcoming chapter of my
journey, thank you! You make my life so special and you all ground me in ways
that shape me in to being a better Mother for my Hallie and my soon to be Son,
Cole.
As
this chapter comes to a close, my house is quiet and my bags are packed. As my
eyes scan the room, I can’t help but imagine the difference that will usher its
way in, as we bring another life in to our cozy little home. So as I wait,
imagine and try to mentally prepare for the labor of bringing him in to this
world, I’ll try my best to be patient. Until then, I’m out as Mallory, mother
of one!!
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| Thought I'd share a memory from the first few moments with Hallie Grace. 7/6/14 |
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