I
sit with you this evening with a joyful spirit, a full heart, and a very full
glass of apple juice.
I am now officially in my 2nd Trimester for
this pregnancy and I have to say the cravings are in full force this time
around! This blog isn’t much about the pregnancy, as it’s been wonderfully uneventful.
Due to past losses, I am grateful for each day that passes that I crave very
specific juice flavors and almost forget that I carry another life within me,
as I chase my lively toddler around. The lack of ‘excitement’ comforts me in
knowing, there is a sweet life nestled inside me, growing each day. The giant
belly that offsets my balance is looming in the near future, but for now I
savor each day, as they are very special; growing a new life and new addition
to our family.
As
I bring up new growth I must bring up the exciting fact, we’ve bought a home!
If you told me even 2 weeks ago that this happened, I wouldn’t believe you. But
that’s the interesting thing about God. He is the ultimate provider, and even
when you don’t know what you need or how on earth God could make something
happen for you, He shows you He can do it.
I’ve
grown a lot in my relationship with the Lord in the last year. I’ve always claimed
I believed but I never felt the pure and raw emotion I always saw in others as
they worshiped or spoke of their experiences. I never knew how to reach it or even how to go about finding it. I began a prayer journal over a year ago
and as I’ve mentioned in past posts, it’s helped me a lot. It’s shown me the faithfulness
that God so subtly sprinkles in and around my days. And as I realize now, all
of those little prayers he answered for me, was preparing me for the ultimate demonstration
of love in my life thus far. To take this relationship I’ve had growing for the
Lord, to a level of trust I’d never had in Him. I’d heard about, but never felt
for myself.
***
It
was a gloomy day, my daughter had just gone down for a nap and I had just
gotten off the phone with my Dad. We had a heart to heart about my current life
situation. Jon and I were faced with another move. We didn’t want to leave the
home we had been renting for the last year, but due to circumstances, it was necessary.
I had been scouring the internet for apartments to rent but nothing seemed
doable or appealing to move my growing family of almost 4 in to. I sat there
staring out the window at the freezing rain and cried like I’ve never cried
before. I felt hopeless. A home is a special place to me and to feel like I was
faced with a task I didn’t know how to complete, I wept. I cried out to God for
help. After a while, that was it. I picked myself up and went about day.
I
won’t get in to the entire story, because the details are long and I’d go on
for days. But what I can say, is the next day we found ourselves with an opportunity
to apply for a mortgage loan, a special loan that is only available for certain
areas due to agricultural qualifications. So in other words, this house was one house that qualified for one specific loan that happened to be a
perfect fit for my family. In the perfect location, the perfect price and the
inside was as beautiful as the outside.
We were approved almost instantly and two days
later our offer was accepted.
I’ve
had a couple days to digest this but as the details come together; each hurdle
we face has been laid out before us and taken care of. God has orchestrated
this entire thing and made sure I was taken care of and that is just; breath-taking.
The turn of events I’ll never forget and I’ll base the rest of my life on
trusting him and leading my family to learn of his true love and faithfulness.
Every day as I pull up to my home and remember how we found it, it will be a
living testament of how involved our God is and how much He cares for you and
me.
What
a gift.
xxoo
Mallory
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